i wonder what it's like to be the new girl. i mean im gonna go to a new school for only one year & i practically dont even know anyone except my cousin jenny who will only be in the 7th grade when i get there. its hard to find good friends these days, because you never know who to trust. and if they'll even want to be your friend. wait why am i even talking about this. its going to be next september....gosh im such a loser. i'll just say bye now.

 there is just so much things involved these days. pressure is being put & stress is overcoming your body. anyways im either transferring to bancroft or hughes for 8th grade so i might as well say goodbye already. its just so hard, when you've already got used to something with other people to enjoy it with, and then all of a sudden a total crisis comes up and you've gotta leave it all behind. then you just start thinking about what to choose, when its all just uneasy and you just cant think. so that's when you hit the point that you need to run, but you just stay there and look through the world and yourself and that's when you decide how the decision you choose can affect everything. sorry but i just needed to express this all out. i wish everything would be okay & that i knew it always will.

you came into my life
quietly, simply, placidly
and my words stood still....
i couldn't express in words
or even in simple gestures.
the secret i kept in my heart.
so i loved in silence.
admired you from a distance
dreamt of you from afar.
i wanted to say i love you...
i wanted to say i care.
but cowardly, maybe, you'll only laught at me
in silence then i will love you.
in silence then i will care.